5:27 am Scribbling Epiphany
[2/22, 5:27 AM] : Have you ever felt so fucked up, that all you wished in life was to be dead, get vanished all of a sudden or just escape this reality?
[2/22, 5:40 AM] : This world is a trapped place,
It’s not beautiful,
It doesn’t mean anything,
It’s like a facade created by us,
We shitty people/humans,
Create a meaning,
We mend our emotions to places,
And god damn it,
Even in god.
We just want to get fucked up,
We need to feel pain and misery and death,
We don’t mean anything,
Like we don’t need love and care,
This both words are like a mirage,
They’re something like a end point,
Enlightenment you can say.
I mean how selfish and how bad can we be,
That we dare allow a shitty person like us in a world like this?
I mean who does that?
To someone they’ll give their all life,
They’ll die for,
What the fucked up human does that.
I mean what?
Don’t you have something of your own?
You own means you,
And your dumbass ideas,
Of a better world.
Focus on it.
Stop with this all deceiving.
Stop to bring words like,
These all words are just pain,
This all are death of us.
Fuck what you think,
Fuck what people think,
Fuck yourself god damn it.
I mean I’m done with you all,
All of you,
I hate the fact I do so much for you,
And in the end I die alone,
Alone in this rotten meaningless world.
Loving the people who don’t love me,
Caring for people who are selfish,
You all are just a empty long stupid biology of this god,
What is god?
Is he even there?
What if you’re listening just kill me god damn it.
I don’t want to stay alive here.
This all sucks,
It’s all a lie,
I can’t keep up with their emotions,
All they want is to be loved,
To be faked,
I can’t do it anymore,
I’m done being good and bad,
Now I wish to be is nothing.
Like nothing at all.
I wish to be dead,
To be taken away from all this morons,
Who just need something FROM me,
They need to feel loved and cared.
I don’t fucking care.
I don’t want them to even touch me.
This all are sadist,
They feed on emotions and body,
And now this fucking money is in the picture too.
What the fuck.
Just kill me please,
I wish to die,
I say, Amen.
I need you to kill me.
I need to be dead.
I don’t want to stay alive here anymore.
I hate this world,
Everything in it.
I WANT MYSELF TO BE DEAD,
KILL ME, PLEASE.
[2/22, 5:44 AM] : All we try is to not be a bad person okay? Yes you idiots it is what we try. We fake ourselves in the eyes of others. All we care is about ourselves.
[2/22, 5:45 AM] : If you show your true self, people will kill you, yes definitely they’ll kill you.
[2/22, 5:45 AM] : I don’t want all this emotions and this craving of lust.
[2/22, 5:45 AM] : I wish to be empty and I don’t need any emotions.
[2/22, 5:46 AM] : Plus in past day’s I’ve spoken so much that I’m drained out, I’m drained out of words.
[2/22, 5:46 AM] : This humans are fuckers at the end I’m Telling you
[2/22, 5:46 AM] : They want, no all they want is sex and money and a body not a soul
[2/22, 5:47 AM] : Trust me I’m telling the truth
[2/22, 5:50 AM] : Anyone who knows much are dead. They’ll die. Because if they know this world. Like the functioning of it. All they’ll need is to be dead.
[2/22, 5:52 AM] : I think I’m like all the humans here, no like seriously. I’m everyone. I just don’t know who I am anymore. I’m everyone. I try to find myself. But I think what I really am is a bad human. Because I just hide and don’t show my true colors. I just don’t feel. I just start hating humans all of a sudden. I do.
I’m everyone and I’m no one yes
And I wish to stay dead.
No like kill me.
My head is aching and spinning.
[2/22, 5:53 AM] : Don’t bother showing me what you have.
I don’t need your money and emotions and you fakness
[2/22, 5:55 AM]: You humans are mad people. The one that seems sanest the most is the maddest of all. Hell yeah cause he’s a fool. To do thing’s like this world wants.
What the hell do you think of yourself? That you just create your own philosophy in this world. Why should we care what you think?
[2/22, 6:02 AM]: POWER. LOVE. INDEPENDENCE
[2/22, 6:13 AM]: Everything in this world means nothing